I've needed an outlet for all the thoughts that go swirling around in my head and a venue to gain clarity. In my opinion & in agreement with what Michael Nichols states on his blog, it is definitely one of the best ways to do that because it places a natural accountability on what goes on in this extremely smart (at least that's what my mom & dad always told me), mostly thoughtful, rarely foolish, but not always expressive mind of mine.
Find a time, find a place to pray everyday for 21 days. 6 AM or 10 PM. A prayer appointment with God for 10, or 15, or 30 minutes. I will circle a promise from God in prayer.
Ask God for discernment - a problem I can't seem to overcome.
Does that mean God will give you an answer in 21 days? The goal is to establish a prayer habit. Now, I've had an established prayer habit in the past - way before we started having children & Mario & I also had an established time of prayer before Julianne was born because while I was pregnant with her, an ultrasound showed that shed had a growth in her kidney. So, in terms of intentional prayer, it's something that I need to go back to.
I know that critical thinking is one of the most important traits for my children to develop but for which they haven't had much success at, particularly my son. So in order for them to have an example to follow from one of the people in their lives that cares the most for them, I figured I would post my own blog with an example of what critical thinking looks like through posts of my own thoughts.
This also gives me the opportunity to "process what I'm thinking" and the growth I've gone through as I've experienced life to the full. I want to be healthy mentally & emotionally
My dad's favorite disco music that he played all the time while I was growing up made a permanent mark in my dna. There's a reason why I lean towards fresh, booty grooving, soulful music. It's just a part of who I am. But I grew up in a Christian school where we were literally banned from listening to Rock music. We even had to sign a contract stating that we would not listen to it. Boy, I'm sure that's caused a bunch of cognitive dissonance even now, knowing how much "dancing was being disobedient to God" but how darn much I currently enjoy getting my groove on.
What's even causing me more cognitive dissonance is how much I want to be in control of things & how much I can't be in the position that I'm in as the Financial Secretary for a church - more so a congregational church which is led by a council. I'm too much of a leader to be able to continue to thrive in this kind of environment. It's killing my soul & my spirit. I think it's time for me to make the move, to set the budget & get my awesome self out there ready to help people who want to move forward, get out of mediocrity, & be the best selves they were created to be.
I am definitely not the "government" worker type. I've found I'm way too ambitious. Maybe even ADHD like for people to be able to handle someone who's a "scanner" just like me. But I've found others who are just like me. So I've got to hang with them so I can be who I was made to be. Time to move on & get my soul stirred into action. I've learned to value myself & my own opinions so much more now that I know I just can't please everyone. Thank God, I'm finally learning this.
I will keep on smiling, because I know I'm beautiful!
My imagination is my preview of life's coming attractions! I am absolutely thrilled with this thought!
God, I ask that you help me set my internal money thermostat so that I can have millions to be able to use for our family's lifestyle & to be able to give.
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